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I wished I were dead
- Alexis Leon
(Part -2)

I am an Industrial Engineer by profession. In Industrial Engineering, one of the fundamental principles is to produce maximum results with minimum resources. We call it Productivity Improvement. In rehabilitation process, that is exactly being done. The spinal cord injury has rendered most of the body useless. So managing those functions, which you were doing when you were 100% fit, with the limited resources that you are left with is a very difficult and time consuming process.

Everyday the therapy used to start at 8 AM and lasted till 4 PM. There were rigorous exercises to strengthen the upper limbs, which you will be using in the later part of the training to do most of the activities. It is a very hard and lengthy process and there are no royal roads to it. One has to sweat it out. On the other hand, it is very exciting, challenging and an excellent opportunity to prove one’s mettle. The therapists and doctors helped me in making me as independent as possible. The rehabilitation centre is like a joint family. People of different castes, from different states, from different social, financial and educational backgrounds, co-exist and help each other in such a way that is beyond imagination. There are games, sports and other recreational activities, cultural programs to entertain you. There are group discussions, where people share their experiences, anxieties, aspirations, difficulties and fears and try to find solutions for them. Here also there is constant motivation, help, encouragement and even participation, from the therapists and doctors.

So at the rehabilitation centre, I was taught to manage my activities of daily living, like dressing, bathing, etc. all by myself. Then I was made to stand and walk using callipers and walker. Here also, without the constant encouragement and support of my family, friends, the therapists, and the doctors, I would not have reached my goal. When I was re-learning to walk in the Physiotherapy department, I was being taught how to be independent on a wheelchair by the occupational therapists. Since my level of injury was quite high (T5), my sitting balance was not very good. So in order to get that, I was asked to do some silly games (at least it occurred silly to me at that time) like transferring small wooden blocks from one side to another, stooping (to conquer) and picking up things from the ground, etc. Slowly my sitting balance improved and I was put on a wheel chair. Then they started teaching me how to propel the wheel chair gracefully, how to do the transfers from bed to wheel chair, from wheel chair to car, etc.... Advanced wheel chair training involved doing ‘wheelies’ on the wheelchair to get past small hurdles and to travel on rough terrain. When the doctors and the therapists felt that, I was ready to face the real world, they said it was time to go.

From the rehabilitation centre, I went to another hospital for a stint of Ayuervedic treatment. The treatment there improved my condition a little, though nothing dramatic happened. But there I got enough time to think, to plan my future, to rearrange my priorities. Till then, that is after the accident, I was living in a protected environment. Now, I had to face the real and harsh world, which even the 100% fit people are finding very difficult. In the hospital, the treatment was only for 1 - 2 hours a day, which gave me enough time to prepare myself to face the world. Like every young person, I also had dreams, dreams about the future, about life, career, family, home, kids, etc. But everything was shattered to pieces on that fatal day. There I got enough time to collect those broken pieces and put them back into some sort of a shape. But the shape that came out was entirely different form the original one. But what ever happens, life must go on.

I have learned a lot from the accident. First and foremost is that there is something called Spinal Cord Injury and most of the people are ignorant about it. Secondly Friends and Family. Even though I have read stories of people giving their lives for friends, I have never before experienced that kind of friendship. May be it was there, but I never felt it. I am proud to say that, I was fortunate enough to have such a very good friend who was with me throughout the entire process. He used to visit me every week travelling a distance of about 140 kilometres, used to bring me books, news, and used to share all my anxieties and fears. I could tell all my problems, fears, apprehensions, etc. to him. I could discuss my future plans with him. It is very essential and important to have a good friend with whom you can share your fears, problems, ideas, etc. May be this is one way God has blessed me. By giving me a very good friend. Not all people in the world are that fortunate.

My family was the most important factor. They gave me courage, suffered with me, cried with me and endured the pain with me. In fact, they must have suffered more than me. My brother was with me from the day one and is still with me.

A lot of my friends, superiors and colleagues were there to take care of my needs, give me courage, mental support and any other help whenever I needed it. They used to send me cards, books, cassettes, letters of encouragement and what not to cheer me up. During those periods of physical pain and mental depression, the only thought that helped me in keeping my spirits up was that there are people, in fact so many people, who loved me, who believed in me, who would support me, who prayed for me and most importantly who wanted me back.

The organisation I worked for was another factor that helped me a lot. They promised me that I will not lose my job and can join back for duty as soon as I was independent. I didn’t know such kind of love, compassion and human values still existed in this modern world where ‘Winning through Intimidation’, ‘Creative aggression’ and ‘ How to fight dirty...’ are the buzzwords. This accident has increased my belief in people. ....More


 

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